Pain of Regret

“Pain of Regret”
I don’t know why I have been so focused on regrets lately. I’ve just been wishing I had done things different, wishing I started sooner, wishing I knew then what I know now. 
🤦🏽‍♀️ But there is no use in wishing away regrets. It only holds you to the past instead of focusing on a brighter future. I know this but feel trapped in these regrets. Does anybody else feel me?
Either way I can at least learn the lesson to experience the pain of discipline now, stop the procrastination so I don’t have to repeat this pain cycle again later down the road.

Masks

Can we be real? We like to think we’re these compassionate people who are so in tune to others needs and yet when confronted with an uncomfortable situation we put on a bandage with cute sayings of “it will be ok this too shall pass” or “time heals all wounds” or “this won’t matter 5 years from now”. Then we pat that person on the back and move on with our lives. People are hurting and a cute saying we heard from someone else or saw on social media isn’t a quick fix all. Peoples hurts and problems don’t cook off in a microwave of set time. I remember being in a rush with a friend I hadn’t seen a while in school and she was in pain I could see it on her face. I gave her a quick comforting word and hug then said we would catch up & took off. That weekend she committed suicide. It’s haunted me since. Instead of just moving on with life at fast pace, slow down, find out what’s wrong then sometimes don’t even give advice just an understanding hug. Pray for them but follow up. Send them constant encouraging words. Ask how you can help. Just be a constant loving reminder that yes their problems with pass but until then you’re the friend they need to see them through until then. You never know what life you may save…..or when you’ll need that type of help in return.
Prayers of a Wounded Warrior

Shame Poem

Deep in darkness you stay
Trying to make me lose my way
In the recesses of my mind you rest
Always telling me I don’t deserve the best
Reminding me of all of my regrets
and of all my failed tests
An invisible weight, you rest on my shoulders
turning my heart colder and colder
you cultivate and grow bitterness in my soul
never allowing God to make me whole
so today I tell you shame
you can no longer remain
in my God I am redeemed
and He is giving me back all I ever dreamed
In Him I am made whole
in Him I am bold
I’m a failure & unworthy of love are the lies you told
in Him I’m everything and more
in Him I’m redeemed forevermore
He is my light in the darkness
He loves me despite my life’s mess
Redemption, healing & wholeness over me He spoke
now my life is forever filled with hope!

 

Please check out my blog on detrimental effects of shame by clicking on the link below:
The 5 Letter Ugly Word – Shame

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