It’s amazing to think that a year ago I found out I was pregnant with my second child. I couldn’t believe after 10 years I was pregnant again facing all the unknowns and excitement I didn’t get to enjoy the first time. This time was going to be different I was in a better place and I was prepared for this. I wouldn’t want to rush through this pregnancy. I would enjoy it. It turned out to be a very rough pregnancy and I had more problems and complications than my first pregnancy; but looking back now I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Thinking back I can’t believe that at that moment my lil guy was only a couple of cells that were beginning to grow inside of me. I didn’t know if he was a boy or girl, what features he would have, and what I was to expect in the months to come. As the little creation made out of love began to grow and I watched him turn into a head with a tail. Hearing his heartbeat for the first time was one of the most beautiful sounds in the world. I came to look forward to hearing that at every doctor appointment.
As I watched him grow hands and feet, a spine and features it boggled my mind that this would one day be my baby that I would hold in my arms and kiss. When I felt him first move I was so thrilled to feel the sensation of him. Little did I know I would feel a lot of that movement in the months to come. He was very active, he loved to kick and move and push under my rib cage and make it hard to breathe. He is STILL very active!
Just reminiscing over the past year everything I have gone through and seeing his beautiful face now at 4 months old the time has passed so quickly. I felt like I was pregnant forever but looking back it was only a flash compared to the rest of the life that I will be watching grow and learn and love. It amazes me to think that what started out as an egg and seed came together and grew into this wonderful human being. Something that was so small that it was able to fit inside of me will eventually grow up to be a man and I will get to experience every bit of watching him change from a boy to a man. I am looking forward to seeing the man he will become yet I want to cherish the baby and boy that he is. I want to hold onto each moment that he is in. I don’t want to rush anything of it because I know it will go too fast. I will treasure every moment that is the miracle of his life.